Have you ever attended an event because you just thought you
should be there? You went not knowing exactly what to expect because it was
something sort of new in your world. And yet, there had been things stirring in your heart, perhaps
even troubling you…maybe for a short time, maybe for years. So you went.
I think that is what I saw. I am pretty sure it is what I
experienced – a group of women gathering
under the banner of Free To Lead with a whole range of questions , doubts, expectations
and even fears, and yet with the courage to check this thing out. Women who
recognize and embrace their place as leaders and women who wondered if they
really could be leaders. Women who were unsure of their ability and yet feeling
a nudge toward more. Women who know their giftings and are yet unsure of the path.
And often, all of those things are in each woman…sometimes we are complicated
creatures!
Even with all of that, or maybe
because of it, there was a sense of anticipation in the room.
With the panels and the speakers, stories were shared that
were easily recognized, themes we live by. I need to prove my worth…prove that
I am smart enough or, on the other hand, hide my intelligence. Be responsible
for everyone. Don’t make mistakes. Don’t be yourself.
All of that and leadership too?
We know the verses from Psalm
139…you created my inmost being…you knit me together…all the days ordained for
me were written in your book before one of them came to be… (from verses
13-16).
Many of us have probably said the words to others – You are
God’s masterpiece – and we easily believe it - for them.
The statement was made that “we honour God when we take time
to discover His handiwork – and that handiwork is you.” Murmurs of understanding. Heads nodding. That
seems to be one of the keys of the conference for many.
Identity. In Christ. Unique…with
weakness and strength. And dare we say it…even called.
In that, there is a recognition that this will look
different for each of us. Some will intentionally mentor. Some will quietly influence.
Some will make the plans. Some will lead the charge. Some will pick up a mic.
Some will pick up a pen. Some will find solutions. Some will challenge. Each
path as unique as each of us…each leading, influencing, as God has planned for
us to lead and influence.
One of the opening comments that had many of us scrambling
for our pens was this: “God can’t use what we won’t acknowledge.” What do you
need to acknowledge? What do I need to acknowledge? What strength? What stirring
of your heart? Where do you need to take a step?
The closing admonition – be open
to being used…let your heart be moved…do something!
In all of this, it is not about claiming a position or
recognition for ourselves. Hear the Father say “That deposit in you is for me.”
It is all for Him, for His Glory and His Kingdom.
Ruth U.